When I was at the secondary school, I had a group of friends I used to go out with. Well, when I started high school I didn't keep in touch with all of them, but only 2, Bruna and Alex. Bruna has always been my best friend, she's the nicest person of all the world, really (but she's not pretty xD), Alex used to be my best friend, but then there has been a period of continue arguing with me. He now barely talks to me. Our friendship is currently based on hypocrisy, and we don't have confidence anymore. I have always tried to be his friend again, but well, I failed everytime. However, with new school and new friends, Bruna brought to our group 2 other girls she knew in her new school. We socialized fast, and we started going out often. From September I understood I liked one of them, Carlotta. I liked her because she was different from other bitches (yeah, girls here are bitches!), and my likeing slowly turned into love. I informed the others in the group to try to obtain informations, but nobody helped me. Everybody seemed to dislike my choice. I felt a bit bad, but well, I didn't care that much. However, I had fear to tell her I loved her, cause if she didn't like me, I would have probably lost one of my best friends ever... I have had a period during which I have always been thinking about what to do. I finally realized it was enough for me just to have her as a friend, at least for the moment. Just knowing she was there, talking and joking with me, made me feel happy. One day she posted on her blog one of that stupid test which ask you everything, and she said se liked someone. My hopes went up. I knew she didn't have many more "male" friends, so that body she liked might have been me, or maybe Alex. I was almost sure about that. However, I was still unsure on what to do. 2 saturdays ago Alex asked me on MSN: "Do you still like Karly?" (Karly = Carlotta). Obivously, I answered I did. He then encouraged me to tell her I loved her... I felt really happy in that moment. My old friend tried to be friend again, and I also dediced to tell her. But I didn't immediately, cause I was going skiing. When I returned (last saturday), Bruna told me on msn Alex asked Karly to stay with her. I can let you imagine how I felt in that moment... I felt used. Decieved. Frustrated. He just encouraged me to tell her I loved her to understand if the boy Karly liked was him or me. Now they're engaged. However, today Alex talked to me on msn to clear up a bit, but I didn't forgive him. My rage is still too much to forgive him. And well, today I also told Karly I loved her, but she didn't care so much. I lost everyone I loved: my friends, Karly. That's why my life has no sense anymore...
Wow, i'm really sorry that happened... Not much else I can say, but if you need someone to talk to i'm here for you. edit: Yeah. how old are they? I know you're 15...
That sucks. Well you know you can always rant at us. though you say they're engaged...how old are you friends?
Oh, because the best thing to do when you want to keep a secret is make a topic about it. :| I'm pretty sure Ricky just needed to vent and for us to listen, not say stupid things like "wow that suks man" without caring or even knowing Ricky. Not that I really KNOW him know him, but I do know him better than someone who's only Actually, I'm going to stop talking now, before my big mouth gets me into trouble. :yup:
I do know Ricky... We go waaay back. So to speak. I do know how he feels unfortunately and it isnt very good at all
I made this topic just to show two people in the shoutbox my story... but I forgot to delete it. However, engaged is not what I mean. I just searched for a traslation of the italian word that means what a "couple" is. They're not going to be married, don't worry
*Hugs for Ricky* I remember how that feels . I liked my boyfriend I'm with now for about 6 months before we actually got together. We were both quite shy, but I thought he *might* like me. I'd been talking to a friend about it and she started to talk to him on MSN to try and see if it was worth me saying anything to him (I know, I know.. I was only 14/15 though). Then, another friend tells me that she has asked him to meet up with her and go to see a film as she liked him. Mine had a happy ending though. I could have strangled her at the time, but as it turned out, when they met up, he just kept asking questions about me and we started seeing each other a few days later. I can understand the frustration and feelings of betrayal though. My friend pretended to want to help me just so she could get his email address.. Pfft. I let things go though and we continued to be friends, until it became quite apparent she was an absolute moron and a waste of space anyway.
Man don't let these things slow you down. While you're down, you won't realize all the opurtunities you pass down because frankly you dont care. I've learn to keep moving no matter what happens, trust me somthing right will happen. If not then maybe thats the way its meaant to be but i doubt it, so keep your head high.
Oh no, my comment wasn't directed you Megiddo. Sorry if it seemed that way. And xxx, I'm glad your story has a happy ending.